Sugar addict, Carb loading Fitness freak is going to learn the word CONTROL.

I am addicted to weight loss programs.

I am addicted to the thrill of trying new diets.

I love the process of starting them on 'Mondays' with all the beauty and purity of a slate wiped clean (its forever perfect on Mondays).

I adore the highs and lows of the whole process. I love the idea of being as thin as possible whilst I eat a whole box of cookies in one sitting. This is my world, what I think about, what I daydream about...workouts, food programs, logging my calories what I'm going to eat for the next week etc etc etc..

I've got food issues. Seriously, I do. But, by starting this blog I am hoping that someway, somehow I can feel obligated to stick to my eating programs and workouts. Because consistency is the absolute key to making my fitness goals. It is absolute.

For me to lose these last 30 lbs and then some..I gotta be like superglue on this shit.

Sooooo.....By having an online 'motherhen' of a sorts will help me be more accountable and honourable to myself. We will see...usually it only takes me 2 weeks to move on to something 'new.'

But, nevertheless, enjoy the ride--cause, its gonna be pretty wacky.



The Sugar Cookie Princess

P.s. Why Sugar Cookie Princess? I love sugar, I love cookies and I am always a princess ;)

Even she knew that weights are what make the woman

Even she knew that weights are what make the woman
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I don't do things well on my own. I don't like to be alone in the deepest, darkest part of the night. I hunger for the belief that everything will turn out perfectly, without having to do a mass suicide with all of the'voices' in my head. I hate thinking about anything that is reality based, who wants to? Who cares? Its all just a fantasy anyways.

Wednesday, 20 April 2011

Its because I don't respect myself enough

At least that is what I am getting from the current booky I am reading.  Yeah, I said "booky." LOL  You know since I have been back from England its been a damned struggle to get back into the swing of things.  I don't want to eat healthy foods--I want to eat crap--I don't want to stick to protocol--I want to cheat every chance I get.  Ultimately, its a bit sad, but hey! I am working on it day by day.  Its just been a rough couple of months and my mind wants to console itself with delicious kettleKorn and cookies..Can you blame it?  After the whirlwind that has been happening the last few months?  The inconsistency of my life has caused a major shift in what I think is a good dinner; Popcorn, 75% dark chocolate and a burger and fry from Five guys does not constitute a "good" matter which way you look at it.  *sigh*

Tomorrow..tomorrow..tomorrow its always tomorrow but this time we are going to say "tonight"..tonight we start anew.  The big thing is that there is no weighing in until Monday so I need to have my shit together tomorrow and the rest of the weekend..which I think I got covered..I bought food--fridge is stocked with the good stuff now its just up to me to promise to myself that I will continue on and keep going without let up...

I just have to choose to right?..right.

Saturday, 9 April 2011

Here we go again! :D

I have a little secret to tell.  I have offically blown my diet for the last week.  Big time.  Since, I have been back in the states its ALMOST mindless eating sessions everyday.  DISGUSTING. BLECH.PUKE.GROSS!

At 35 I don't have that much "wiggle" room between looking decent and looking like a stuck pig.
So, I HAVE to get back to my program, get back to my progress...honestly, I am just doing this to look better than most 25 year olds.   I would say 18 but that would be pushing it--ALOT.
LOL. more blubber days, no more cookies, popcorn, soda, and mindless munching on cheese wedges because I am emotionally hurting at the moment.

Tomorrow (always tomorrow, isn't?) I get back on the horse and ride it till I look like a toothpick.
Wish me luck everybody..cause, its gonna be a BUMPY RIDE!!