Sugar addict, Carb loading Fitness freak is going to learn the word CONTROL.

I am addicted to weight loss programs.

I am addicted to the thrill of trying new diets.

I love the process of starting them on 'Mondays' with all the beauty and purity of a slate wiped clean (its forever perfect on Mondays).

I adore the highs and lows of the whole process. I love the idea of being as thin as possible whilst I eat a whole box of cookies in one sitting. This is my world, what I think about, what I daydream about...workouts, food programs, logging my calories what I'm going to eat for the next week etc etc etc..

I've got food issues. Seriously, I do. But, by starting this blog I am hoping that someway, somehow I can feel obligated to stick to my eating programs and workouts. Because consistency is the absolute key to making my fitness goals. It is absolute.

For me to lose these last 30 lbs and then some..I gotta be like superglue on this shit.

Sooooo.....By having an online 'motherhen' of a sorts will help me be more accountable and honourable to myself. We will see...usually it only takes me 2 weeks to move on to something 'new.'

But, nevertheless, enjoy the ride--cause, its gonna be pretty wacky.



The Sugar Cookie Princess

P.s. Why Sugar Cookie Princess? I love sugar, I love cookies and I am always a princess ;)

Even she knew that weights are what make the woman

Even she knew that weights are what make the woman
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I don't do things well on my own. I don't like to be alone in the deepest, darkest part of the night. I hunger for the belief that everything will turn out perfectly, without having to do a mass suicide with all of the'voices' in my head. I hate thinking about anything that is reality based, who wants to? Who cares? Its all just a fantasy anyways.

Thursday, 17 November 2011

Day 6 of Juice fast and day 11 of Repairvite cleanse

That looks good doesn't? is actually this  is pretty much  what I drank earlier today:

3-4 large stalks of kale
.5 zucchini
1 chinese pear
1 apple
3 celery stalk
healthy nub of ginger

Makes about 24 oz of juice

I am cleaning out my fridge right now, I got apple happy and bought a  bunch on discount at Harris Teeter the last week.  So, gotta juice those guys up , before going balls to the wall with a lowered fruit content of my juices.

Its been almost a week juicing and I feel fine..actually more than fine. I feel better, just thinking about some things last night in relation to my juicing and cleansing.  That  before I started all this I felt "OKAY" now I feel  "BETTER" the goal is to feel "AWESOME" 80-90% of the time all the time.

So, that is the focus and the goal..I know it is going to take some time maybe a year of solid  on and off cleanses , eating properly and juicing to get to that point.  I am just going to keep trying.  Plus, getting down to  a lower weight is the goal as well.

Lost maybe about 11-12 lbs in the last week or so..still got about 20 lbs before I get to my  half way point of  perfect weight. Total i want to lose about 40lbs total, look good naked (not flabby or wrinkly) and  be balanced in my food choices and  thyroid.

So, how is the repairvite going?...hmmm...well, nothing especially wonderful is happening, just have a steady flow of energy and no dips or  highs which I am taking as a good sign.

Although, BM have been non existent..probably from the juicing.
OH! I have added veggie protein powder to my juice, beef  amino acid tablets and fermented foods with each juice..just something that needs to be done for my body to function (I believe).

Well..that is all folks!

Sunday, 13 November 2011

Repairvite Day 6

Scarey isn't?  That giant tub of blueness just staring out at IS scarey!!! :(

Its this new thing I am doing to save my rotting gut--literally!  I heard about it from a nutjob, selfish doctor that is more consumed with his $$ than helping people--its cool,  whateve...Another posting for another rant!!

So, what I am doing exactly? Scarey stuff.. :'(  It goes like this:

You drink the above drink 2-3 times a day, along with that you take this

And this:

Then you follow a very strict diet for about 3 weeks or longer if you feel you need to do it..well, based on what your doctor tells you.  Bascially, in the diet you eat meat, veggies, fruit, seeds and root veggies, squashes and fermented foods of all sorts.  

Dairy? NO
Sugar? NO
Pizza? ABSOLUTELY NOT!!! hahahaah
But,  so far so good..I mean I meant to write a blog about this 5 days ago but, didn't have the energy or the time to do so because:

A. the first 3 days was total hell
B. Busy with work and school
C. The next 3 days has only started to feel okay
Dropped tonnes of water weight so far, and starting to look better overall (I think)
Still got about 2 more weeks left, including Thanksgiving which is good cause, I can do the program afterwards to clean out my gut after all that deliciousness!
So, I have decided to blog each day just a bit about how the Repairvite is doing and what else I am up to: I have been Juice fasting as well for the last 3 days which I think has helped quite alot! :)

Anyway tootles!

Wednesday, 20 April 2011

Its because I don't respect myself enough

At least that is what I am getting from the current booky I am reading.  Yeah, I said "booky." LOL  You know since I have been back from England its been a damned struggle to get back into the swing of things.  I don't want to eat healthy foods--I want to eat crap--I don't want to stick to protocol--I want to cheat every chance I get.  Ultimately, its a bit sad, but hey! I am working on it day by day.  Its just been a rough couple of months and my mind wants to console itself with delicious kettleKorn and cookies..Can you blame it?  After the whirlwind that has been happening the last few months?  The inconsistency of my life has caused a major shift in what I think is a good dinner; Popcorn, 75% dark chocolate and a burger and fry from Five guys does not constitute a "good" matter which way you look at it.  *sigh*

Tomorrow..tomorrow..tomorrow its always tomorrow but this time we are going to say "tonight"..tonight we start anew.  The big thing is that there is no weighing in until Monday so I need to have my shit together tomorrow and the rest of the weekend..which I think I got covered..I bought food--fridge is stocked with the good stuff now its just up to me to promise to myself that I will continue on and keep going without let up...

I just have to choose to right?..right.

Saturday, 9 April 2011

Here we go again! :D

I have a little secret to tell.  I have offically blown my diet for the last week.  Big time.  Since, I have been back in the states its ALMOST mindless eating sessions everyday.  DISGUSTING. BLECH.PUKE.GROSS!

At 35 I don't have that much "wiggle" room between looking decent and looking like a stuck pig.
So, I HAVE to get back to my program, get back to my progress...honestly, I am just doing this to look better than most 25 year olds.   I would say 18 but that would be pushing it--ALOT.
LOL. more blubber days, no more cookies, popcorn, soda, and mindless munching on cheese wedges because I am emotionally hurting at the moment.

Tomorrow (always tomorrow, isn't?) I get back on the horse and ride it till I look like a toothpick.
Wish me luck everybody..cause, its gonna be a BUMPY RIDE!!